All my life,
I feared the fear.
All my life,
I feared to live.
Feelings I kept inside,
Anger, frustration and pain.
Feelings locked deep inside,
Love, confusion and longing.
Always when a chance to hurt,
I locked and blocked myself.
Always when at risk of pain,
I kept it boiling inside.
No longer do I want to hide,
Those feelings I kept inside.
No longer do I want to fear,
And tell people what they want to hear.
Free I want to be from fear,
No longer do I want to hide from what is dear.
I want to shout,
I need to pout.
Sometimes I will be hurt,
Denied, rejected or critized.
Often, I will be okay,
Deal with the hurt.
Oft
Fear and curiosity fight,
Come together as you might.
Opening my heart to you,
What will that forever do.
I might not want to hear,
As I always am in fear.
Fear of pain and rejection,
Causing my so much fraction.
Letting go of this fear,
Might be something I want to hear.
As it hurts me deep as hell,
And it never does me any well.
Curiosity is hard to maintain,
But I have so much to gain.
Start to thrust myself now and here,
As I do not longer want to life in fear
Changing is not easy,
And might make you a little wheezy.
Changing me is hard,
And it’s only just a part.
Letting go of all I knew,
While feeling so damn blue.
It is not fun at all,
As you answer the call.
My feelings are upside down,
As I even tend a frown.
The pain of change is real,
And it’s that with which I have to deal.
Eventually the pain will float,
As I move along this road.
But for now, it is still there,
And so that’s what I’ll have to bear!
thinking,
Wondering.
Feeling so down,
Willing to go.
Peace, Rest,
Doubt is all I get.
What do I have to do?
How can I do it?
I have to calm down,
Need to rest.
Want to think,
Think to rest!
Memories,
Flowting in and out of my head,
Memories,
Hitting me one after the other.
Memories,
Painfull things to think.
Memories,
Hurting me time after time.
Memories,
Always here.
Near my heart,
Stabbing and pocking it.
Memories,
Some peacefull and calm.
Memories,
Turning my mouth into a smile.
Memories,
Giving me the fluffy feeling.
Memories,
Always near me.
Sometimes stabbing,
Sometimes loving.
Memories.
Dreaming
I want to dream again,
Dare to life again.
Try to see again,
Start to feel again.
My life has changed,
So much.
It scares me so,
You don't know.
I'm sitting here,
Between my friends.
They don't know,
What I've seen.
I want to dance again,
Dare to sing again.
Try to breath again,
Start to life again.
I lost the knowledge,
I lost myself.
Seeking what I want,
What I can.
I allways knew what I felt,
Trusting only that.
Knowing that everything was right,
Knowing life was bright.
I want to trust again,
Dare to believe again.
Try to find again,
Start to breath again.
Determination gets me u
Doubt
Doubt about if I can,
Doubt about who I am.
Planning goes wrong,
I do so much wrong.
People deny,
Saying I'm goood, I'm smart.
Doubt crawls into my veins,
Put me out of breath.
I can't think,
Can't believe.
My heart ounds faster,
Scared as never before.
I wonder if I can,
I wonder if I know.
Fright comes up,
Shall they leave me if I fail?
Tears want to role down my cheeks,
They can't.
Something holds me back,
Shall I sekk some help?
Weakness comes up,
Doubt starts again, Heavier as never before.
Growing and growing,
Untill I'm nothing else then doubt.
I don't feel smart,
I don't know much,
Friends together,
Sitting, talking, playing a game.
Music´s in the air,
Brings joy to the hearts.
Somenone´s asking for tea,
A smile for the tea and me.
Sitting there behind the bar,
Thinking and writing.
Calm I feel inside,
Peacefull as I am.
A small talk,
Some more joy inside.
The music´s still playing,
Jolly and nice.
Sweet you are,
The one inside my heart.
I´ll see you in my mind,
Beautifull and sweet as you are.
There you´ll be,
Untill I see you again next to me.
A change of music,
A little sign.
Time passes,
We got older and wiser, you say.
Emotions play a huge role in
My heart hears your call,
My body reacts.
Passion rising,
The heat between you and me.
Every breath becomes a gasp,
The heartbeat rising.
You calling my name,
I wisper yours.
Tenderly you touch my skin,
Kiss me with so much love.
I look deeply into your eyes,
A sweet blush apears.
I´m lost,
Can´t get back.
You´re the one I need,
The one I want.
The one I miss,
The one I hold so tight.
My Angel,
My love
What is love?
What are people?
What happens when the person you like just isn't the one for you?
What can I do?
What do I feel?
How can I make this work for me?
So many questions and no that I can answer. I just want that one, the love of my life.
Pain everytime I fall in love.
Fear that it will not be the one.
Hope that it will be.
On this age everyone can be the one.
But untill what age?
My one, My love, The one.
Sometimes I wonder, Maybe I have to quit thinking.
Maybe I must start too believe and feel.
How does that work?
How can I just forget my head and use my heart?
Will that work in this community?
The pres
All my life,
I feared the fear.
All my life,
I feared to live.
Feelings I kept inside,
Anger, frustration and pain.
Feelings locked deep inside,
Love, confusion and longing.
Always when a chance to hurt,
I locked and blocked myself.
Always when at risk of pain,
I kept it boiling inside.
No longer do I want to hide,
Those feelings I kept inside.
No longer do I want to fear,
And tell people what they want to hear.
Free I want to be from fear,
No longer do I want to hide from what is dear.
I want to shout,
I need to pout.
Sometimes I will be hurt,
Denied, rejected or critized.
Often, I will be okay,
Deal with the hurt.
Oft
Fear and curiosity fight,
Come together as you might.
Opening my heart to you,
What will that forever do.
I might not want to hear,
As I always am in fear.
Fear of pain and rejection,
Causing my so much fraction.
Letting go of this fear,
Might be something I want to hear.
As it hurts me deep as hell,
And it never does me any well.
Curiosity is hard to maintain,
But I have so much to gain.
Start to thrust myself now and here,
As I do not longer want to life in fear
Changing is not easy,
And might make you a little wheezy.
Changing me is hard,
And it’s only just a part.
Letting go of all I knew,
While feeling so damn blue.
It is not fun at all,
As you answer the call.
My feelings are upside down,
As I even tend a frown.
The pain of change is real,
And it’s that with which I have to deal.
Eventually the pain will float,
As I move along this road.
But for now, it is still there,
And so that’s what I’ll have to bear!
thinking,
Wondering.
Feeling so down,
Willing to go.
Peace, Rest,
Doubt is all I get.
What do I have to do?
How can I do it?
I have to calm down,
Need to rest.
Want to think,
Think to rest!
Memories,
Flowting in and out of my head,
Memories,
Hitting me one after the other.
Memories,
Painfull things to think.
Memories,
Hurting me time after time.
Memories,
Always here.
Near my heart,
Stabbing and pocking it.
Memories,
Some peacefull and calm.
Memories,
Turning my mouth into a smile.
Memories,
Giving me the fluffy feeling.
Memories,
Always near me.
Sometimes stabbing,
Sometimes loving.
Memories.
Dreaming
I want to dream again,
Dare to life again.
Try to see again,
Start to feel again.
My life has changed,
So much.
It scares me so,
You don't know.
I'm sitting here,
Between my friends.
They don't know,
What I've seen.
I want to dance again,
Dare to sing again.
Try to breath again,
Start to life again.
I lost the knowledge,
I lost myself.
Seeking what I want,
What I can.
I allways knew what I felt,
Trusting only that.
Knowing that everything was right,
Knowing life was bright.
I want to trust again,
Dare to believe again.
Try to find again,
Start to breath again.
Determination gets me u
Doubt
Doubt about if I can,
Doubt about who I am.
Planning goes wrong,
I do so much wrong.
People deny,
Saying I'm goood, I'm smart.
Doubt crawls into my veins,
Put me out of breath.
I can't think,
Can't believe.
My heart ounds faster,
Scared as never before.
I wonder if I can,
I wonder if I know.
Fright comes up,
Shall they leave me if I fail?
Tears want to role down my cheeks,
They can't.
Something holds me back,
Shall I sekk some help?
Weakness comes up,
Doubt starts again, Heavier as never before.
Growing and growing,
Untill I'm nothing else then doubt.
I don't feel smart,
I don't know much,
Friends together,
Sitting, talking, playing a game.
Music´s in the air,
Brings joy to the hearts.
Somenone´s asking for tea,
A smile for the tea and me.
Sitting there behind the bar,
Thinking and writing.
Calm I feel inside,
Peacefull as I am.
A small talk,
Some more joy inside.
The music´s still playing,
Jolly and nice.
Sweet you are,
The one inside my heart.
I´ll see you in my mind,
Beautifull and sweet as you are.
There you´ll be,
Untill I see you again next to me.
A change of music,
A little sign.
Time passes,
We got older and wiser, you say.
Emotions play a huge role in
My heart hears your call,
My body reacts.
Passion rising,
The heat between you and me.
Every breath becomes a gasp,
The heartbeat rising.
You calling my name,
I wisper yours.
Tenderly you touch my skin,
Kiss me with so much love.
I look deeply into your eyes,
A sweet blush apears.
I´m lost,
Can´t get back.
You´re the one I need,
The one I want.
The one I miss,
The one I hold so tight.
My Angel,
My love
What is love?
What are people?
What happens when the person you like just isn't the one for you?
What can I do?
What do I feel?
How can I make this work for me?
So many questions and no that I can answer. I just want that one, the love of my life.
Pain everytime I fall in love.
Fear that it will not be the one.
Hope that it will be.
On this age everyone can be the one.
But untill what age?
My one, My love, The one.
Sometimes I wonder, Maybe I have to quit thinking.
Maybe I must start too believe and feel.
How does that work?
How can I just forget my head and use my heart?
Will that work in this community?
The pres